I had a giant stack of ‘Weaving’ Pins on my Pinterest account. I was hesitant to buy a weaving loom myself because I was kind of confused about how big it should be. I knew I wanted to weave all kinds of stuff like pillowcases and ‘wall art’ and maybe even a rug someday. So I didn’t know how big the loom should be plus I always have a couple of projects going on… So the time issue is a real thing… Because I always feel guilty whenever I buy all the right equipment for a project but can’t start for a while because of the ongoing projects…
But this Christmas my friend gave me this loom as a present and I was so happy! Finally, in January I thought it’s time and got it out.
And so I started this piece and it was going alright until… It wasn’t… I was so frustrated by it and it was all wrong and I didn’t know how to make it pretty how to make it better… Until I just thought… Let start it all over and I’ll make something else…
As someone who expects herself always start something and do it brilliantly… It feels hard sometimes to admit defeat. When in fact failing at something is a natural part of the learning process. I always expect from myself that as long as I just dive in I will figure it out and make something pretty in the end. For the majority of my project, this is not the case. And yet it always takes me by surprise. I think because of the internet is such a blessing and a curse at the same time for all us creative people. We look at the works of others and think: ‘hey, that’s beautiful I wonder if I could do it…’ And then there are loads of courses that make you go ‘See… This is is a piece of cake…’ and then you try and the reality is… You have to practice. Even if something looks deceivingly simple. And usually, the swift hands of the professional make you believe that it is simple. When in fact each and every single thing that is shown to the world is carefully selected… thought through. There are colors that are picked and the quality of the materials is pristine… not to mention the experienced professional that creates the piece.
I can’t call myself a perfectionist because I’ve never been perfect at anything in my life. But I don’t think that’s the point. The point is expecting it from yourself. And the fact is I can’t be perfect. I’m perfectly imperfect in everything I do. This is painfully demonstrated to me by my experience each and every time. And I’m learning to accept this about myself. I’m not there yet, but I’m working on it.
You need to keep all of this in mind when you start something new. I sure need to… So this is it I’m starting over.
What I hope you take away from my experience here is that everything we do is just a practice. If you look at whatever new thing you are trying as a practice and not something you have to excel at. You’ll be more relaxed and you’ll probably have much more fun at creating something rather than grinding your teeth because it wasn’t as pretty as it was in your head.
Lots of love,